animal stories

2012-01-24T15:17:00.000-08:00

I thought I would go back to the point where it had started, but it's different.
pencil is my tool now.

I need a tattoo talisman, but somehow it may conflict with western medicine.

2011-09-28T03:15:00.001-07:00

I wanted to write when I was in China, but I couldn't because of the censorship.
And now I have the possibility, but I can't do this.

2011-02-15T09:05:00.000-08:00

moscow airport.
brian eno is better for airport in warsaw.

2010-12-19T07:40:00.000-08:00

yesterday I went to the library to pick up a book about minimalism. I was waiting for 2 hours and tried to do nothing, tried to just wait without getting nervous. I was just looking at people, lapms and the coldness of this huge building.

my minimalist obssesion is back, I don't want things, just aesthetics.

2010-10-09T09:38:00.001-07:00

ᐃᓅᔪᖓᐱᕈᕙᓯᔭᓵ

2010-03-01T13:17:00.000-08:00

2010-01-26T10:49:00.001-08:00

the river is frozen.

2009-12-25T11:55:00.000-08:00

Dear Darkness.

2009-10-06T05:25:00.000-07:00

something happened and we got scared.
we had no time to prepare.

but we're going to handle it.

zen habits.

2009-09-15T12:36:00.001-07:00

wraca do mnie jak bumerang.

2009-09-15T12:23:00.000-07:00

byłam dzisiaj nad tamą, tam gdzie zaczyna sie zielony szlak.
woda tak dziwnie sie ruszala.

2009-09-02T13:40:00.000-07:00

I see who you are
Behind the skin
And the muscles

I see who you are, now
And when you get older later

I will see the same girl
The same soul
Lioness, fireheart
Passionate lover

And afterwards
Later this century
When you and I have become corpes

Let's celebrate now all this flesh on our bones
Let me push you up against me tightly
And enjoy every bit of you

I see who you are

2009-08-24T15:57:00.001-07:00

ja też nie mogę przestać patrzeć.

2009-08-19T07:45:00.000-07:00

widzę dużo różnych szczegółów. jakieś zarysowania, kiełkowania czy pęknięcia.

pewnie wszystko się da.

2009-08-19T07:18:00.000-07:00

nawet już nie boję się tak bardzo powtórzenia.
można chwycić za klamkę inną ręką niż zwykle, można wstać godzinę wcześniej lub w środku nocy, zmienić drogę do domu, pokroić chleb w nowy sposób, można to zrobić no.

2009-08-18T12:22:00.000-07:00

i run to the end of the road, where the wild river starts from.

[and tomorrow i'm going to wake up and kiss Her neck.]

2009-08-09T06:19:00.000-07:00

2009-08-02T09:07:00.000-07:00

Lioness, fireheart

00:58

2009-07-23T15:55:00.000-07:00

AT field i wszystkie te piekne samurajskie miecze poszly sie jebać.

no i jak tam? przestałaś się bronić?

9th floor reset

2009-07-23T09:32:00.000-07:00

Lord Know L'Edge kołysał się na kłodzie i rozkruszał styropian, gdy w innym lesie powstawały nowe konstrukcje, chociaz to moglo byc miasto.

i am the person who constructs wrong pictures.
from this point there is no escape from settings.
AT field rebuilt.

rudy kot spi i drżą mu uszy.
ostatnio noszę miecz na plecach.

2009-07-22T23:09:00.001-07:00

yeah, i am the barbarian myself.

2009-07-21T15:15:00.000-07:00

the pirates have come.
or should i say - barbarians?

2009-07-21T07:06:00.000-07:00

will the summer make good?

2009-07-18T13:36:00.001-07:00

it's all about aesthetics.

8A -potencjalna leśność barbary

2009-07-18T06:29:00.001-07:00

another intense days film.
invisible waking expectations/
after effects last longer then the core.

Immortal Prince scattered his narrations at night/
i'm building mine from tiny numbered photos and names.

grey times nr 2

2009-07-18T05:23:00.000-07:00

& grey sounds.
watching what happens to the brain.

Wiesz, możesz dostać wpierdol na wiele różnych sposobów i to zawsze będzie ciekawe. Latające kolano, liver-kick, nieświeże żarcie i czerwonka, no zawsze coś. Nawet podnoszenie się jest wielowariantowe. Możesz gryźć ziemię miesiąc, możesz poderwać się na nogi i uciec, możesz wybudować dom w lesie i zamurować się za ścianą. Morze możliwości. [joriki]

2009-07-07T11:23:00.000-07:00

pig's answer

I Found A Reason

2009-07-06T17:46:00.000-07:00

at the moment i've thought about The Pig Story.
it's simple, i think i have never been so happy before.
and never so sad.
maybe that's why it was real.

2009-07-01T14:27:00.000-07:00

i don't know the person i was 2 years ago.

after dark months

2009-06-26T11:14:00.000-07:00

intense days.

I gave flowers to a stranger on the street.
she took me to the mountains.
i poured some meaning in Her.
too fast.
and now it got fucked up.

2009-06-26T10:41:00.000-07:00

after the long training i must be fucking jedi.

cutting hair

2009-06-07T16:12:00.000-07:00

(Her)

zdanie o śniadaniu

2009-06-03T16:06:00.000-07:00

i inne koraliki.

the bachelor

2009-05-25T12:05:00.001-07:00

i could write something here.

i think i'm very happy now.
don't need almost anything from future.

or, maybe notebook computer to draw everywhere.

or, healthy knees to run.

I'm not gonna marry in the fall
And I'm not gonna marry in the spring
I'll never marry - marry at all
No one will wear my silver ring

szczegóły są wywrotowe i

2009-05-04T14:20:00.000-07:00

collecting moments again.
flowers and stuff.

but flowers are just an addition,
brain is self-sufficient.

2009-05-04T14:18:00.000-07:00

dark months.

2009-04-30T10:36:00.002-07:00

i wish i had more short movies from that.
i wish i had filmed everything.

albo nie.

2009-04-30T10:36:00.001-07:00

niech sobie trwa.

find your place and draw the borders.

2009-04-10T08:15:00.000-07:00

do not care about him, her or them.
do not care about yourself either.
chop down trees, dig out the rocks.
build a fortress.
shoot down intruders.
draw your borders with fog and flames.
get partly invisible.
make choices.
burn fate down to the ground.
long live the Empire.
[joriki]

★

2009-03-29T15:35:00.001-07:00

strong winter is over.

beware of mickey mouse.

2009-03-29T15:09:00.001-07:00

remember that lions and elephants are always there. down there.

break habits

2009-03-26T03:52:00.000-07:00

i had a dream about this simple modern white building hidden in plants, white stone being eaten by a green monster, in the dusk.
i'm back to everyday aesthetics.
japanese aesthetics.

i have more space with every breath. every breath is better.

i'm thinking about the objects. objects keep thoughts inside, don't let them go away.

2009-03-22T07:28:00.000-07:00

2009-03-12T08:32:00.001-07:00

重新開始

2009-03-08T12:41:00.000-07:00

this is how it works.

u always pay.
so let's face the pay time.

-

2009-03-06T18:09:00.000-08:00

i think everyone else is real.
except me & her.
we are cartoon characters.

arctic feeling

2009-02-24T05:19:00.000-08:00

becoming a polar bear.
neverending war/
neverending snow.

lighthousekeeping

2009-02-23T17:51:00.000-08:00

-To nie jest kłamstwo - powiedziałam sobie.- Może to nie będzie trwało, ale to prawda.

tożsamościowe pierdy

2009-02-08T06:33:00.000-08:00

a co na to wszystko zen ?
jest sobie gdzieś tam daleko i czeka.

2009-01-26T04:28:00.000-08:00

i think this is real.
there is no need for more reality.
fish are here.

2009-01-24T16:33:00.001-08:00

kocyk.

intertextual

2009-01-22T15:22:00.000-08:00

as [s]he sat there [s]he knew that it doesn't matter if there are fish underneath. maybe [s]he will find cold cold water and nothing more.[s]he knew that there is an ending of the crystal story (crystal story no.4[?]). and that it is the best moment for diving - before [s]he will find another one, and another one. neverending neverliving.

sharpen edges

2009-01-22T06:47:00.000-08:00

schisometric & [diffi]cult.

let's go back to the point where it started.

2009-01-21T02:28:00.000-08:00

yoda training.
[buddha fart training learn to [go let] you must jedi girl]

wiesz jak to sie robi

2009-01-20T07:06:00.001-08:00

no wiec dziki las las

Will i Harry

2009-01-19T02:43:00.000-08:00

[anty]koncepcje powstają i giną.
wszystko jak kiepski żart.

[Hasty] Boom Alert

2009-01-16T04:44:00.000-08:00

jak wyciagniesz odlamki z glowy, mozesz je potem zawinąc w serwetke i zakopac. i tylko ty wiesz, gdzie je zakopalas. i po co.
aaron funk jak redbull, dominator, łatewer.
za zimno, żeby isc biegac. pojedz w koncu w gory. morze za daleko.

vein tail

2009-01-15T15:39:00.000-08:00

lis i blogspot mają niezlego flowa, mogliby troche odsprzedać.
na razie bedziemy robic animację z podgrzewanym suszarką kenem i troche się narysuję mazakami.

Cavalcade of Glee and Dadaist Happy Hardcore Pom Poms

2009-01-14T15:31:00.000-08:00

zjadlam zapiekankę przed chwilą. endzior byl w dobrym humorze.
wczesniej j zrobil troche plackow z wosku, ktore wygladaly jak stygmaty ze spermy. zostaly w szufladzie.
pokiwalismy sie do rytmow. doberman z nieprzycietymi uszami byl tez.
wez sie ogarnij, laska.
zacznij zdjecia robic, czy cos.

trophy

2009-01-11T06:05:00.000-08:00

lis szuka ciągle nowych zwierząt, ale jak kupi buty, to pojedziemy w góry.

2009-01-10T12:08:00.000-08:00

There comes a moment when everyday objects lose their sense of familiarity, acquire another meaning and seem to become almost abstract. [Elspeth Diederix]

zobaczyłam kadr.

2009-01-08T18:11:00.001-08:00

fuck yoda.

fight!

rycerki

2009-01-08T11:30:00.000-08:00

nakarmiłam dzisiaj adę.
zjadła obiad, a potem naleśnika jeszcze.

wilczyca zrobiła mnóstwo rzeczy, wie to.
od dzisiaj galaretka na wodzy.

druga zwierza też dała z siebie wszystko.
powinny być dumne.

[zobaczyłam lemura w tej miękkiej, różowej zbroi, jak sie wylewa z niej biedaczek:O]

anarchy in the celophane!

2009-01-07T05:56:00.000-08:00

galaretki pracują.

ninja wolf 2.0

2009-01-05T03:16:00.000-08:00

co robisz w nocy, jak nie możesz spać?
shy retirer kroi rybę i rzuca lotki w kapturze na twarzy, kręci hula-hopy i boksuje powietrze w masce trupa.

postaram sie pisać mniej intertekstualnie.

mam duzo ładnych teorii, oceniamy ich ładność i dramatyzm.
mózg pracuje pracuje.

ninja wolf 1.3

2009-01-04T03:47:00.000-08:00

Że jak już bomba, to potem w kocyk, bo jak nie to odłamki znajdziesz w głowie

sciany sie krzywia, odlamki w glowie, borys przychodzi i mruzy oczy.
w tajemnicy przed evgenią daję mu makaron.

tu chyba nie ma miedzi pod ziemią, na szczęscie.

ninja wolf 1.2

2009-01-03T17:22:00.000-08:00

cos tam sie dzieje we mnie, no to sobie popatrze.
reakcje organizmu.

mialas pisac po scianach, malowac żyły markerami i ukladac obrazki z jedzenia, nic nie zrobilas.
moze zrobilas cos innego, wilczyco, moze nie.
no i masz powrot do lasu z wygnania, przymusowy, ale to zawsze cos.
do lasu czy pooglądać [martwe?] ryby, co za różnica.
popatrzec na kontenery ze zwierzakami na dnie morza arktycznego.
wszystkie te biblioteki i studnie i szukanie instrumentów, cale to pierdolenie.

no one will do it for u.

nawet ta zima nie jest taka najgorsza jak nie musisz za dużo żyć.
a jak musisz?

ninja wolf 1.0

2009-01-03T17:01:00.000-08:00

to wszystko dzieje sie naprawde.
i sny tez dzieją sie naprawde.

przypomniala mi sie ta wystawa, sekrety rodzinne, i te rycerki - wojowniczki w różowo-fioletowych zbrojach. i piesek w zbroi.
[sztuka ma jakis wplyw, a jednak!]

so i'm a fucking knight, not a princess.

[wyślijmy różnym ludziom troche tęczowego światła, to jedyne, co można zrobić!]

fever

2008-12-28T04:58:00.000-08:00

i don't know anything about inner animals.
i wish i could, it would be easier.
gorączka wciąż i wciąż, nie możesz spać ani siedzieć ani myśleć, tylko kiwać się kiwać.
a umysł jest częścią ciała, teraz to wiem, gdy powoli wariuję, a może nie powoli, tylko już parę dni temu do tego doszlo.
myslę, że nie wyzdrowieję juz.

i smarkam sobie skrzepami krwi i nie mam sily zjesc calego kiwi.

07:36

2008-12-12T22:36:00.000-08:00

jurgen poszedl i gdzies w glebi pokoju ssie reklmowke.

i've finished writing this shit and don't feel relieved at all.

07:22

2008-12-12T22:24:00.000-08:00

uszy bolą sezonowo, robi się jasno, patrzę na gołębie za oknem,
wyglądają, jakby spadaly.
jurgen tez nie spi, przyszedl tu i ssie mi bluzę.

fucking karma will eat u until u understand.

2008-11-27T09:53:00.000-08:00

poniedziałek, 7 rano

2008-11-26T13:00:00.001-08:00

śniło mu się, że byliśmy x-manami.
śniło jej się, że byłyśmy wróżkami.

(i latałyśmy pod rękę jak bączki)

deconstruction is sexy

2008-11-26T06:19:00.000-08:00

wczoraj w naszej kuchni piecyk, balkon i tessa robili trole z plasteliny do filmu jokera.
a ja zostawiam wszystko tak jak jest, tak jak to zastałam.

no deconstruction at all.

mango metaphor

2008-11-03T06:01:00.000-08:00

And Thor said,
"I'm gonna kill them all
With my hammer,
Like I killed the giants."
And Zeus said, "No,
You better let me
Use my lightening, like scissors,
Like I cut the legs off the whales

ziggy's dead.

2008-11-02T13:14:00.000-08:00

i wrote so many painful messages today.
i got some as well.

i talked with j about interpretations/
that we need them to make a decision/
and then we can throw them away.

this whole psychic shit is just a dramatic effort to balance this fucking pain.
our brains are sad but they are only thin-king jelly.

we can all be free

actually i thought there was could not can

i don't really feel this can.

Yitzhak story

2008-10-27T03:37:00.001-07:00

Rain falls hard
Burns dry
A dream
Or a song
That hits you so hard
Filling you up
And suddenly gone

Breathe feel love
Give free
Know in your soul
Like your blood knows the way
From your heart to your brain
Knows that you're whole

2008-10-25T06:34:00.000-07:00

i had this horrible dream about having worms inside my body.

2008-10-08T13:00:00.000-07:00

u always pay.

the less schematic your decisions, the more u pay.
but i take this.

[someone is going to check the fish underneath]

2008-10-03T09:31:00.001-07:00

yesterday this hindu guy told me: 'you can do everything, whatever you want'.
this fresh feeling.
'and i do", i told him.

fish

2008-10-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

winter is coming.
last winter was strong.
is it always strong?

ready for it.

back to japanese aesthetics again.
always not enough.
one day we'll learn to love it, you'll see.

like a sleepy ice can crack/
but trying to trust it
and
there r fish underneath anyway

frytki i panda.

2008-10-01T07:46:00.001-07:00

'you both are going to play some music and i'm going to cook for you.'

2008-09-26T07:34:00.000-07:00

of course you could find strange guys doing strange things in the mountains.

or you can do it by yourself.

everybody must have a fantasy.

2008-09-08T11:28:00.000-07:00

i have red hot ball in my throat, but it's not Mu.
i can't spit it out.

but i can run and touch the cold ground.

here

2008-09-01T03:53:00.000-07:00

i left her house at 7:35 and went to see the river.
i began to count my breath and lost the sound for few seconds/

then she came and when we were eating breakfast on the platform, this kanoe guy said something.

7:58 are you sure where my spark is

2008-08-17T15:14:00.000-07:00

(photo by Garance Doré)

wild mountain pig went to her place.

2008-08-07T03:32:00.000-07:00

now i know why i prefer online writing.
it doesn't leave real traces
leave no objects like paper or notebooks.
minimnalism is kept.

i don't have to be a girl all the time, only when i want to.

i remember what he said, that princess must be denotated, not found.
[and we did it.]

xxy

2008-08-06T12:20:00.000-07:00

why running?
why water

it's real.
like breathing.
freedom training.

looking for direct contact.
i have to find a bit of identity to loose it.

a jesli nie ma czego wybierać?

river

2008-08-04T14:07:00.000-07:00

i don't know who was watching the waves today.
i lost the contact.

i want my body back.

but the pig stories are perfect.

there is no calcium in my life

2008-07-23T05:20:00.000-07:00

i bought pink trousers for more vitamine c
and drew some monsters

2008-07-23T05:13:00.001-07:00

i wish i could write all these things in chinese/
or draw it

2008-07-23T02:59:00.000-07:00

collecting experiences like objects~
Araki's cat/
Philo Project/
the second prison day/

& all these pig moments.

2008-07-23T02:46:00.000-07:00

i'm trying to quit obsessive thinking.
bought some colourful clothes.
it was hard to admit that my grey times were not the sign of getting better.

pink curtain in the kitchen was the first, i guess.
and the orchid.

2008-07-17T02:51:00.000-07:00

when i enter the door, first i hear the cat power voice.
then i say hello to cats.
and then i see Her.

and everything starts.

właściwe rzeczy

2008-07-08T13:10:00.000-07:00

and she sang it for me.
i left myself and watched it from outside.
couldn't say what happend to me then.
right experience.

nanuq told me few words and i swallowed all of them.
i'm going to learn how to look.
right things.

2008-06-29T04:17:00.000-07:00

and we're both looking for this special connection between brain and fingers/

2008-06-29T03:58:00.000-07:00

today morning/ after waking up/ i saw us as an illustration/
Her - with this blue manga style hair
and me - thin arms and half-shaved head.

it was light again.
i couldn't leave the bed-world/

i want everything from Her.

soko

2008-06-28T05:40:00.000-07:00

please, can you make some beautiful babies?

we can't.

and him, being a bleach blond girl.

NH

2008-06-28T03:30:00.000-07:00

dramatic Lemur

2008-06-23T10:42:00.000-07:00