if he publishes my book next year, something will change in my mind, I promise.

what a wonderful month!
first, wolf children.
then, alex.
even this strange virus in my body gave me this possibility to apply for the scholarship.

and now: Alphabet
with Andre.
I will never never again tell a child to draw something particular, even if they ask.
They always ask; "what should I draw now"

"uważaj na głowę"
[tabliczka nad schodami w autobusie]

I loved that girly voice but I love the new one too

I'm finishing the book and
I'm in love with Claire's hands (today)

it was your people who built it, right, the druids

home

I bought green trousers and this yuba river fragrance to be able to go back to the city.
I could keep just these with few other things but my old student asked me yesterday not to throw away my ninja clothes

"we liked it" he said

how sweet is that

living in this song since yesterday

I've grown a handsome tall tree, mother
And I want to bear a fruit for you
And I've carried your fears and your hopes, father
It's so heavy on my back, oh you should know

yes I'm doing this
i feel euphoric and horrified

missing the Forest more than missing humans.

this white place again, white walls, white table and a cup of tea.
white paper and a pencil.

Wczoraj w lesie po zapachu znalazłam krzak malin.

when I asked children at my workshops which animal did I resemble, they said a dolphin or a siren

In Japan, I saw an old couple bowing to the deers on the street of Nara.

我今天在森林看到几只鹿睡觉，就了解到我也得向它们鞠躬。

I spent two days with this transparent woman and it doesn't seem real but it was.
I woke up at 7 and drew the tree monster.

[mara cerri, una stella cadente]

sprzedawczyni do małej dziewczynki w sklepie: "czyja jesteś, mamusi czy tatusia?"
dziewczynka na to: "kota".

plansza jest pełna kamieni.
jakoś uwiecznimy ten moment.
[j]

森林一天比一天绿

dear queen,

we will be ok one day.

it doesn't even really matter that it's not happening right now
because everything is simultaneous.

I'm working on this picture book again, I'm almost shaking.

It's almost like love. maybe not even almost.

I not only live close to the Forest,
there is the River down there too.

they've found a unicorn in Italy

one of my internal organs is missing and it's definitely not the heart.
liver maybe.

pewnego razu kogut chciał udawać psa, ale nie miał szczęścia, rozpoznano go natychmiast. natomiast pies udający koguta do dziś dnia nie został rozpoznany.
[ionesco]

In February I've been mostly feeding myself.

when the fear is out, I can see the signal.
I don't know where it comes from,
inside or outside, it doesn't matter,
there may be no outside/inside.

trees are alive, I don't know why it wasn't so obvious.

today I've got this hand tattoo and
it's funny it's outside/inside. 

yesterday the forest smelled like beijing for a moment.

in the city the river is melting, swans are awake.

deers

today morning I met them again and we were just standing without any move and staring at each other for about 10 min. it must have been stressful for them so I left.

how to smash this fucking imaginary aquarium?

it's different every day.

everything in a glass coating today in the woods/
branches and leaves so easy to break.
no animals
no motion

I was thinking about the imprisoned owls, but I was afraid to check. 

tui with a gun and johnno running barefoot, these are my amulets, since I'm close to this. 

magnetized mountain, deers with white asses and

I'm waiting for the tattoo on my hand, it took me 30 years.

moving the borders of reality constantly - some kind of practical metaphysics.

no one in the forest this morning, I didn't care about the rain.

enough moss, so we don't need to go to new zealand.
but this hill has a dark secret too - there is a prison at the top.