animal stories

I realized recently that I know this kind of experience - I have this every time everything is falling apart, but just for a moment - in the moment, in now- it doesn't matter if something is falling apart, because in that moment it doesn't exist. I don't know how to explain. in the moment nothing exists but rain or a sound or something like that

for years I thought this experience was some kind of denial but actually it's probably the opposite, the thing I've been searching for